I've been so busy...but of course you know that. So much has happened since I last posted and I will be speaking (typing) about that but really it all boils down to being blessed. Not the usual "God bless you" that you hear all the time when you sneeze, but the honest to goodness God is working in your life kind of blessed.
To me being blessed goes hand in hand with the old saying "ask and ye shall receive". In other words pray (ask) and God will bless you. Many days I find myself wondering what I will do next or how will I solve a problem? I find myself asking God to help me...show me the way...or give me a sign. I always have absolute faith that His will be done...I might not like it but that's life.
Recently, I have begun homeschooling. I started without textbooks knowing that the right stuff would find it's way to me. What did I get the first day of school? An email from the homeschool I'm using telling me about free textbooks from our local college. I was so excited and got everything I needed.
Homeschooling is lonely for the preteen as well as for me. I don't know anyone around here that does it and some people think I'm crazy for doing it. But again God knows what I need. The librarian here is very welcoming to all of us when we come in during the day. And she is so helpful when we need help finding books. And now my online community is answering a need by hopefully being a mentor and sounding board for me. Because of all this I know we will find a good source for quality people for the Preteen to "hang" with.
Now I know it sounds so sickly sweet and this post may have you thinking that I always go to God. This is not true. I suffer with the sin of impatience. There are days when I think...your will Lord but my time table!! It never works but I almost can't help myself.
It has been almost two months since the Enforcer had his surgery. Two months of trying to bring another life into this world and nothing. I want to scream at God...Yoo hoo here I am ready and waiting for a baby!! But this would be wrong for so many reasons. The Lord knows what I want and He also knows the right time for it, plus I think He's trying to teach me a virtue here...patience. So I will wait and try not to get excited about the idea of sewing tiny diapers and clothes. Now if He could just bless me with smaller thighs....
