Isn't it funny how some seemingly small thing can change your life, can lead you to bigger and better things? Today I am celebrating my Gravy's 4th birthday. This is a common thing, to have birthdays, but out of all of my children she was the one that changed my life.
First the small things, she loves shoes. I own 3 pair, flip flops, tennis shoes and what I like to call my funeral shoes. My daughter owns about 8 or 9 pair...and really wants more!! She is a perfect conbo of the Enforcer and I, girly yet strong, she is great. I'm trying so hard to raise her to be an assertive woman but also to know that helping others is important. She can be anything she wants to be including mom or scientist or ballet dancer.
I really think that when a woman has a daughter she is reminded of her own relationship with her mother and in my case is determined not to have the same kind of relationship. I want so much for my daughter, not things but gifts of the Spirit. I want her to love the Lord, to be sure of herself and not afraid to speak her mind. I want her to know that she herself is a gift and that no one should treat her badly. I try so hard to shelter her and her being from the harmful things that our society is full of. I see so many girls today just being playthings for men that treat them badly or worse, violently. This saddens me to no end.
Everything I do in my life is for my children. This is not said to make me sound like a martyr, but to simply explain how seriously I take being a mom. So many people today misjudge the impact that a mother has on her children. And some of today's mothers just can't see through their own selfishness to see how thier own behavior is affecting their children. I once had someone tell me that having a kid wasn't rocket science so why not have another baby.... I really think this person is dumb. Parenthood is harder than anything else on the planet you could ever do, it's also more demanding and more rewarding. All that being said, I love it more than anything.
I used to go with the flow, if my doctor or my family said this is what I should do then I did it. That is SO not the case anymore. I find myself questioning everything now. No longer am I a mainstream parent or a sheep following everybody else. I am so anti mainstream. I have Google and I know how to use it!!!
We don't vaccinate anymore. This one decision has caused more problems then any other. I have gotten dirty looks and some people have been downright rude to me about it. I can't explain how much stronger this makes my resolve to not vax. I would also like to point out that the Enforcer does NOT agree with me, but I'm in charge of healthcare in our house so I win!! I don't vaccinate not because of Autism, though I understand how that makes other parents feel. I don't do it because of what is in the vaccines themselves. Most vaccines are grown in fetal cells and I just can't put dead babies in my children. This makes me the bad guy, and I have lost a friend over it. But people if you trust you vaccines and feel the government should force me to vaccinate my children then what are you worried about if your children are fully vaccinated? And if you are trying to tell me that they are not 100% effective then why are you putting that into your children?
I have so much more to write but the school day is about to start... Just remember, don't be a sheep and sometimes when a door opens, crazy people come into your life and it is GOOD!!
